In Which I Straighten Some Things Up / Monday, May 16, 2005
Good grief!
Didn't I say I was happy? I bookended the complaining with happy things. It's just I don't have explain my happiness because it's obvious why I'm happy! Honestly! Thank you for the emails though.
Not much going on really. I've strated recording music again. I recorded half a song yesterday and half a song today, although not the same song. I need a bass. All it needs is the first five frets and all the strings to work and I'd be happy.
Umm... Oh, I'm applying for a job at Carquest. It's the same thing as I'm doing right now but in someone elses truck.
I bought GTA:Vice City on Sunday, it's fun. Ash doesn't like it though. I don't understand why though. Chopping up innocent people with a samurai sword/chainsaw just doesn't appeal to her I guess!
That's it. Tata!
/Hopped!
9:36 PM
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In Which I Do A Quick Update / Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Sorry, I've been rather busy of late. It's late, so I don't know how long this will be because it's already past bedtime, but Ash can't sleep, she say's she'll have nightmares. I guess this is good practice for all the sleepless nights with the little one!
We saw it's heartbeat the other day, and we've got pictures. Everything is going along as it should. the baby is now about 8 1/2 cm long, znd right now it's little fingers and toes are developing.
Ash is doing well, all things considered. She's really not feeling very good though. I'm trying my best to look after her, but she's having trouble waking up in the morning and she's always in pain. And she is always complaining. So considering all those awful things she's doing well. Oh and she is now off her anti-depressants so that just adds to everything.
As for me I feel very guilty. It's because of me that Ash is in all this pain. I wish I could take it away. It's kind of hard to explain, especially to those of you who aren't married. The one person I love so much that I want to spend the rest of my life with is in pain, and she wouldn't be if it wasn't for me. I want to be helping her avoid pain instead I'm giving it right to her. That's not my only problem. I also feel pretty under appreciated (and because I feel like that I feel selfish) I have been cooking, cleaning and comforting Ash all the time (hence why I haven't written in a while) that I'm not working. Ash is complaining, crying, and in pain. She does say thanks lots and stuff but she complains and crys alot more, On the bright side it does make me apprciate her smiles (when she does) alot more. What I need is a friend who I can complain to but you're all thousands of miles away. I'm in this huge city with no one around I can call a friend apart from Ash and that doesn't work does it?
Ahem..... Sorry about that, jsut some things I needed to get off my chest.
Oh and also there's a new dispatcher at work. he's 18 years old and sometimes he acts like a five year old.It would take too much explaining to tell you about that. He's just not making my job bearable. All the other dispatchers I've worked with I feel like I'm working with them, like they're part of the team. This one I'm working for him, like he's my boss, which would be fine but he's really bad at being a boss. Okay, so here's an example: at 4:30 there are four drivers standing around doing nothing because there's nothing to deliver. Any other dispatcher would send all but one of the drivers home. After all what's the chances that four seperate deliveries will come up, all going in different directions, all ten minutes away? (slim to none) The new guy won't send anyone home until the clock strikes five. rshole.
The other big thing that has been decided is that we're going to move back down south where life is cheaper and family is closer. So if you want to come and visit Washington DC cheap come before September. A motel here will cost you at least $80 a night, if you don't mind sleeping with cockroaches, or you can sleep here and all it will cost you is taking us out for a meal one night (and maybe a few groceries would be nice). You'll even get free metro use (Ash has about $200 worth of metro cards she keeps getting from work) and I'll give you a lift to the station in the morning and pick you up in the evening. How much do I have to sell this?
The bad news is that I'm not going to be able to make it over for Rich and Karens wedding. With a baby on the way we really can't afford it. Otherwise I would be over there like a shot. So who knows when I'll be coming home. That's kind of depressing. Oh well!
Although it may sound like life is afwul for me right now, go read the second paragraph again! All this complaining is like complaining about work. even if you were getting paid millions for your job you'd still complain about it until yoou got your paycheck. Ash and I are on our way to the biggest paycheck ever!
Anyhoo, it's definatly well past bedtime now. Goodnight!
/Hopped!
10:14 PM
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